heading to sin city in about a month. till then its time for a crash diet plan of sorts.
this will probably be my last trip for awhile cuz afterwards i am going to start aiming for a real job plan for my life. i've wasted far too much time. i guess it was always a point of trying to do what makes me feel alright. i've had too many jobs in my life where i hated going to work. i get that i'm not going to love my jobs all the time. most of the time it becomes the 'just another day at the office' approach, so i guess i've been stalling all this time because i'm afraid of becoming miserable. afraid of failing and getting fired. i don't know. plus the timing just wasn't right. now everything seems to be falling into place and it's looking like my window to leave the restaurant and do something else, has arrived. it's pretty intimidating. it's pretty sad as well because most people have this feeling after they graduate; not 2 years after they graduate. i need to get rid of the fear of failing and just jump in i suppose.
so i'm going to try to let loose a little bit in Vegas. try to have some fun because once i get a job i fully expect to be a little miserable, or at least very stressed until i get used to everything, which takes me awhile. i don't like it when things get hectic. that probably explains why i was a shitty waiter. I'm more or less just babbling at this point and i just felt like writing something cuz what use is this damn site if i don't.
p.s. i need to find more productive ways to occupy my time. especially online. i'm not the greatest web surfer.
also congrats to the upcoming graduating Class of 2009. all of my ties to college are slowly but surely dwindling and entering the real world. my God i'm getting old.
