Know what you are.

I used to blog a lot in college. In recent years I stopped. It started to be looked down upon. A lot of times (obviously not all the time, but a number of times) I would read others and it would come off as emo. Funny, i used to call myself the Original Emo. It was almost how i identified myself in my early years of college. These days, and probably those days as well, emo kids are looked down upon. They're looked at as losers who are too busy feeling sorry for themselves.

...so i stopped blogging. I would do it occasionally just to update. That simple use is useless now too because it's a lot more accessible to see how others are doing now, with facebook. in the early days of college circa 2002-04, there was pretty much just xanga, possibly friendster, and probably myspace...none of which are even close to the way fb connects everyone.

i digress. I stopped blogging because I wanted to stop being emo. No one wants to hear that shit, let's be honest. However, I and other 'emo' kids just kept on writing shit...probably hoping that others would read it and get a better glimpse of what was going on inside. Not really to comment, more-so just to be aware i suppose. or maybe I'm completely off base. I stopped blogging because i didn't want to be seen as emo anymore. it was time to grow up and continue along and figure it out as i went along. too much writing meant too much thinking which lead to overanalyzing aaand after all that you'd be back at step 1. the cooler thing to do was to simply not blog. say nothing. maybe come off as if everything's cool. Those were always the cooler blogs that got all the comments anyway. The 2 sentence entries and not the 4 paragraph ones. Who really wants to sit through 4 paragraphs? Less is more.

So I said Goodbye Blog. I didn't want to be that guy. THE EMO GUY.

In the process, I stopped writing. I used to enjoy writing. Idk why but the only thing I was good at writing was emo blogs. that sounds completely ludicrous but I wasn't much of a story teller so I never wrote a book or anything. I was just good at making my shitty day, sound worse. call it a gift. call it a curse. going onnnn and onnn about a whole lotta 'boo hoo this, boo hoo that.' A whole bunch of bullshit is what is was. All that stuff that runs through the mind. Like i said, Bullshit. Funny thing is that everyone has a lot of it in their heads too.

I'm not sure where I'm going with this. Truth be told, when i logged on I really just meant to write 2 sentences and now look where that got me.

Everyone's got emo days or tendencies. if they don't, they're probably hiding it. or maybe delusional. or maybe, just maybe, they're CONTENT. imagine that. I wonder what that'd be like. I could probably find out if i stopped blogging and found out. I'LL BE RIGHT BACK...