My Mind, The Nest of Unorganized Thoughts.

-The Cycle: encounter --> initial intrigue --> slight advance --> intrigue dies
seen it, lived it.
something climatic or anti-climatic occurs.
it's probably me. which is fine but one day i'd like the person to be a good sport and just explain why. it's happened too often for me to believe that there can't be a common thread between it all.

- There's probably a thinner line than you think, between Boredom and Comfort.

- Let's face it...you win. You're better than me.

-Making out is probably an underrated stress relieving activity...if you don't attach any sort of emotional connections or make a big deal out of it. I could be wrong.

- 175 by Age 24. I should probably have more goals than my fucking weight. It's such a sad broken record. What's more sad is that I remember when I was real young I would ask God (like a naive child) to help me lose some weight. "if you help me lose it, I'll be able to maintain it and keep it off." The help came 2 years ago. 2 years later most of it is back and I probably symbolically lied to God. Yep. I'm an asshole.

- You were ready to go. I might be second guessing if I was.

- It could very well be jealousy that leads to my discomfort.

- There are many situations where I virtually "have nothing to lose" but treat the situation as if I do.

- There's a fine line between cleaning your room and simply hiding all your shit.

- If I foresee myself in the office setting while relating to characters in The Office...I'd probably hope to be Jim: the cool collected guy. smart. good at what he does. doesn't let the job stress him out.
I might end up like Toby: miserable. on top of that, he's in HR.

- sometimes i give playful pushes to people i know. A few times I probably over did it. sorry bout that, wanna be friends again? haha.

- I have the most useless iTunes ever.

- Fall Fasting. I gotta lose this shit even if it's the only meaningful thing I do in the near future. i hope other meaningful things will come with it.

- Some days are easier than others in terms of acceptance. Maybe it's hard in terms of accepting that all that time amounted to such little waiting afterward.
you're over it. maybe i can't get over that just yet.

- I don't have any problem with you. or you.

- There are times where I miss those YFC days. those were fun.



ok i think i'll sleep now.










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